宁静 第5期

After supper, I wanted to cool myself, so I played a piece of music ,that was Mozart's“serenade”，and lay on the bed. Closing my eyes, I still felt a little fretful and couldn't calm down completely. I therefore turned off the light. In the room, there was only the faint blue light on the walls which was from the computer screen ,the peaceful music, and me.

I closed my eyes once again ,and tried my best to throw any unhappy stuff into the junk box and then delete them all--- Suddenly, I felt it became darker in the room. I opened my eyes, and I found that the screen had already been in the state of “hibernation”It was tired, too. I thought, just like me.

It was completely quiet all around now. The only thing I could see was the light coming from my neighbor?window on the opposite street. It was good, because I wouldn't feel afraid with its company. I still wanted to close my eyes, but there was no need. The eyelids were protective screens which were set between our souls and the external world, in order to pervert us from being interfered. Now, everything here was belonging to me, and nobody was likely to bother, so it was natural that I needn't close my eyes any more , wasn't it?

I lost in deep thought. Suddenly, I came to a strange place. There I came across a wise and farsinghted old man, who was strolling on a quiet path in a forest.

“You look very tired.?He said.

“Do I ? Perhaps that's because I have too many things to do.”“No, I meant your heart.”“My heart? Tired? I don't think so.”“Yes, I am sure of that, I could judge it from your words.?I was speechless.

“Did you say that you have too many things to do?”“Yes, indeed! I do not really understand why us students are much busier than adults, and what on earth we are for.”“The problem is just right here. Isn't it good having many things to do? Have you ever tried to do nothing for 30 days?”“Never.”“Nothing could be more terrible than that, son. You would feel gloomy and lonely. What't worse is, that you would lose all hope. Then, you would realize how lucky and happy you are with things to do.?Taking no notice of me, he cleared his throat, and continued:“No matter what you do, it is al for yourself. So remember, think over in advance whenever you plan to do something, because everything you do is for your own benefit. You must take the responsibility and decide not only what can be done but also what cannot be done.”“But, sometimes I really think the surroundings are in such a mess that I can't even catch my breath.?”You shouldn't complain a lot. Son, that's kind of choice. Getting bread at the time of hunger, listening to music when being bored, don't you think it is already a luxury that many people are too far behind to catch up?I nodded, and lost in thought.

“Remember, if you treasure your life, and treat it with love, there is no problem that can't be solved?I lowered my head, thinking over his words.

When I lifted my head, he was nowhere.

I didn't chase him ,instead, I walked on my way, and mumbled in my heart, Remember, if you treasure your life, and face it with love, there is no problem that can't be solved.”A gust of blast blew over, and the branches began to rock violently. I still kept my eyes wide open ,staring at the front.

A leaf fell into my palm. I saw some words on it, so I read it out in a low voice, “You should have a happy life. So long as you are determined to succeed, failure will never beat you.”Holding the leaf tightly, I crossed my fingers over my chest, and thanked God for his favor.

Not until the light was on did I find that the “serenade”was over. In my hand were my glasses.

Unconsciously, the minute hand of the clock had already walked for a round. I should get down to do my business now.

晚饭过后，想静一静，我躺在床上，电脑里放着CD――莫扎特的《小夜曲》。闭上眼后，还是有些浮躁，我索性把灯也关了。于是屋里只剩下电脑屏幕射在墙上的淡淡的蓝光，悠扬而微弱的乐曲，还有我。

我再次闭上眼，试着让自己完全放松下来，并把脑子里那些不快的事放入“垃圾箱”，然后“删除”……突然，我感到似乎更暗了，于是睁开眼，才发现屏幕已处于“休眠”状态，原来和我一样，也感到累了。

现在四周真正静谧了，我能看到的惟一光源是对面人家的窗户，这样也好，不会让我感到害怕。我还想闭眼，却发现已不需要了。眼皮是放在心灵与外界之间的一道屏障，为了防止受到干扰。而现在周围的一切都是我的，没有人来打扰我，自然就不需要它了。

我静静地思索着，仿佛自己已化身为一个睿智的老人，漫步在夜晚宁静的山林，而平日中真实的我就在他身边……

他说：“你似乎看起来很疲惫。”

我回答：“是吗？或许是因为我要做的事真的太多。”

“不，我是指你的心。”

“我的心？疲惫？不会吧。”

“是的，从你的话中我已能听出。”

“……”

“你说觉得要做的事很多？”

“是啊！的确很多！我实在不明白为什么学生比大人还忙，更不明白为了什么。”

“问题就在这里。有很多事要做难道不好吗？你试过30天内什么事也不做吗？”

“没有。”

“那会更可怕的，孩子。你会感到郁闷、孤单，更重要的是，没有希望和寄托。到那时，你就会觉得有事可做是一种享受，一种福气。”

“真是这样吗？”

他没有理会我，清了清嗓子，继续说：“无论你做什么事，都是为自己。记住，做事前要想清楚，你做的每一件事都是为自己而做的。并且你都要负责任，哪些该做，哪些不该做，这些都是你自己的事。”

“可我有时真觉得周围环境很乱，让我喘不过气来。”

“你没有资格抱怨这些，孩子。那是选择。饥饿时能吃到面包，无聊时能听到音乐，这已经是很多人望尘莫及的了。”

我点点头，若有所思。

“记住，珍惜生活，并以祈祷的爱心面对生活，就没有不能解决的问题。”

我低着头，品味着他的话。

再抬起头，他已不见踪影。

我没有去追赶，只是缓缓地踱着步子，喃喃自语：“珍惜生活，并以祈祷的爱心面对生活，就没有不能解决的问题。”

一阵狂风吹来，树枝哗哗作响，我仍睁着眼睛，凝视前方。

一片树叶落入我的掌心，我摊开手掌，看见上面有字，就一声读着：“你本该过上幸福的生活，只要决心成功，失败就永远不会把你击垮。”我手里握着树叶，在胸口划着十字，感谢主的恩赐。

屋里的灯亮了，我才发现《小夜曲》早已停止，在我手中的是自己的眼镜。

不知不觉中，分针已转了一圈，我又要去做事了。