做好自己 第12期

Most of the time, we try to follow others, not ourselves.

生活中，我们有很多时候，在努力成为别人，而不是自己。

――题记

一

I feel very lonely in this flourishing metropolitan, because I don't know where my heart should go. While reading the stories about brave Generals, I feel very ambi tious and wish to be a hero fighting in the battlefield; while hearing about scientists' great feats, I feel encouraged and want to climb the mountain of science; while seeing pop stars' great images, I can't help paying all my attention to fame and money. Every dream is looking for its own palace, but finally, all of them lose their way. I am like a root without soil; I don't know where I should go.

I am given the right to seek what I like, but I have got nothing. I feel exhausted at last. Suddenly, I understood that I was always following others in the past. My lonely soul was longing for the light of hope, which could lighten the long way of my life.But unconsciously, Ilostthemostfamiliar thing――myself.

二

I have no General's boldness; I have no scientist's wisdom; and I have no pop star's good figure.But I succeed in finding the elusory self. Everyone has his own responsi bility and dreams. Why did I put the burden of worshiping others on my back, walking with great difficulty on the long way of life?

Life is realistic.I cannot choose my family or my appearance. In this complicat- ed world, I am only a little creature.In fact, any great thing is just an ordinary element of the earth. Grass admires mountain's grandeur; mountain admires grass's ordinary life.They are admirable just because they show themselves fully.But for me, I lost myself in face of others' brilliance and successes. My thoughts always followed others' thoughts as well. I ignored myself absolutely.

As a matter of fact, there must be some reason for the beginning, and there must be some reason for the end, too. It is a kind a luck or chance that everyone comes to this world.Maybe you have devoted yourself to the society, but you get only indifference and irony in return; maybe you work hard, but you are out of job at last; maybe you are faithful in love, but your beloved lover desert you for no good reason. Maybe you are happy; maybe you are sad; maybe you are confident; or maybe you are disappointed. However, whatever life you have, and whoever you are, you will one day be buried in the soil and become part of the nature. Remember, not all the people can make great achievement, and not every person can be remembered forever. You are still you, so, why not be yourself? Because being yourself means mastering your own life and deciding your own direction; and being yourself should be the firmest faith in life. That is the reason !

三

I am not excellent. Maybe the truth will hurt my parents and friends.But my parents still love me and my friends still welcome me. They would rather I love myself than I must succeed. Therefore, I just want to be myself well, and I just want to be my teachers' good student, my friends' good brother, my mother's good son and a good master of myself.

四

I understand the past, and I understand the present. What we need most now is to be brave and honest. We should be fearless, and we should show ourselves fully! In this world, we should be ourselves!

一

我在繁华的都市里备感寂寞，因为我始终不知把心系往何处。读到将军的叱咤风云，心中升起驰骋沙场的雄心；听到科学家的伟大发明，胸腔充满攀登科学高峰的勇气；看到明星的光彩眩目，不禁地又把神经倾注在了镜头前面……每个匆匆掠过的幻想都在寻找属于自己的殿堂，然而最终却迷失在自己编织的梦中――茫茫的没有边界，空空的没有依托。

自己就是那没有土壤的根，在浩渺的苍穹浮浮沉沉而不知飘向何处?生活赋予我追求的灵魂，然而，我却什么也没有得到。在盲目而轻浮的追求中我倍感心力憔悴。蓦然回首，其实自己一直走在别人的足迹里，身后根本不曾留下过自己的脚印。我凄寂的心总是渴望找到希望的火光，点燃疲惫的血肉，照亮生命的长路，然而，在毫无察觉中我忘记了最熟悉的自我。

二

我没有将军的魄力，没有科学家的智慧，没有明星的俊俏，但我还是找到了那个忽远忽近，刹时烟消云散瞬时晴天霹雳的自己。每个人都有自己的包袱，里面装着属于自己的责任与理想，但我却总是把别人膜拜的十字架钉在自己的背上，艰难地行走在人生路上。

生活是现实的，我无法选择自己的出身与相貌。面对纷繁复杂的世界，我只是平凡的一（接上页）个。其实再奇特的事物也是自然界平凡的一分子，再伟大的人也是社会中平凡的一员。小草羡慕高山的伟岸，高山羡慕小草的平凡，正因为它们各自展现着自我，才使人崇敬，才使世界更加绚丽多姿。但是，我却被别人的庆功酒灌得云里雾里，把自己忘了，也把自己的生活忘了，思想被别人紧紧地捆绑住了，就像眼睛一样总向别人看齐，而从不注意自己。

其实没有无缘无故的开始，也没有无缘无故的结束。每个人既来到这个世界就是一个缘故，就是一种机遇。或许万分诚信而失去信任，或许问心无愧而受尽指责，或许默默耕耘而颗粒无收，或许苦苦等待换来无言的离去……但是无论怎样，或长或短，或精彩或平凡，每个人都得走完自己的一生。人总是攥着拳头来而展着双掌而去。来时，紧握自己的生命；来了，紧握自己转瞬即逝的一辈子，努力拼搏，难道又有谁不知道死后什么也带不走呢?又有谁不知道来时是自己，走时也是自己，努力拼搏实现的更是自己?人生走一圈，不是每个人都可以建功立业，不是每个人都可以载入史册，相伴自己一身的还是那个最最真实的自己。其实，做好自己了也就拥有了人生了；其实，做好自己了也就无怨无悔了；其实，做好自己，这才是人生坚不可摧的信仰。

三

我并不优秀，可能我的无才无能会刺痛亲人们的心，但亲人们依旧爱我，朋友们依旧欢迎我，关心我的人依旧无时无刻地牵挂着我。他们并不希望我非要成功，只希望看到我能热爱自己，能热爱我自己的生活。所以我只想做好我自己，做老师的好学生，做朋友的真兄弟，做妈妈的好儿子，做自己的好主人。

四

我懂得了过去，也懂得了现在，现在我们最需要的就是一颗朴实而勇往直前的心，用它把自己辨得清清楚楚，明明白白，让自己的道路永远伏在自己的脚下，脚踏实地而无所畏惧，寻找自我，施展自我，做好最最真实的自我!