时间：2022-03-06 01:07:43
Changes of the Body
I was in an English lesson and I came out and I went to the girls’ toilets, I think because I had a bit of a stomach ache, and then I was, like, “Oh, dear.”
All the girls, like, grow first, and stuff like that, so we’re, like, behind them and then, like, you start noticing, like, you’re, like, as tall as them and stuff and, like, catching up, and you don’t like to notice yourself growing really, like, you just notice that, like, things, you’re suddenly just, like, taller, you can see in a mirror that you couldn’t see in before and stuff like that.
I was just getting really worried, ’cause I hadn’t started, and, it was getting, like, really late, and all my friends had, but then, like, when I had it, I was, like, “I don’t want it.”
The first change that I noticed was when I was about 15, I had, like, had a little 1)moustache and I had to start shaving it off, and that before quite a lot of my friends. It made me feel lonely sometimes, ’cause no one else was going through the same thing, so I couldn’t really talk to anyone in my class about stuff.
Peer Pressure
With my first girlfriend, everyone was telling me what to do with her, and I was just kind of confused and…which made it quite difficult in the end, but I basically just kind of talked to her about it. And then there’s another time when, like, if you’re at parties and everyone’s doing lots of drugs, then if you’re not doing the drugs, then I guess it makes everyone else feel a bit bad, I suppose, and so they kind of, they want you to do drugs too.
You have enough peer pressure at this age―and you do―you are forced to act, behave, dress in a certain way.
Academic Pressure
I get, you know, wake up in the middle of the night, and I’m, like, “Oh God, I’ve got exams and I don’t know what to do.” Feel like I’m gonna cry all the time. Horrible. I got Bs in English, but it wasn’t, you know, quite up there and I lost all of my confidence. You feel like you’ve got to do the 2)A-level thing. In two years, you know, there’s no room for failure. What if I want to take a year out and stay at home? No. Out of the question. When I got my 3)GCSEs I was…I was so upset, like, unbelievably upset, that I decided that I was gonna do well and that I was gonna, you know, never have to be that upset again.
The teachers all seem to think that we have nothing better to do than just 4)work our asses off, but I think it’s more just a time for finding out who you are and what you want to do.
Peer Bullying
People used to say stuff like, “Oh yeah, you smell”and everything. And it really, really gets you down. Kids can be really, really cruel. It’s amazing. They can pick up on anything at all. If you’re not in school, they’ll call you “5)skiver” and, you know, they will pick up on any single little thing. It’s like every one of them has got, you know, a 6)chisel, and they’re just 7)chipping away at you all the time, and if you can’t stand up to it, you know, you’ll end up like nothin’ in the end. It’s really sad.
I did get bullied by people in the year above me for a while, and then people in my year. I found it very hard to make friends, ’cause people thought…I was worshiping 8)Satan, and so, people didn’t like me. It was hard, but then made me the person I am now I think.
Worries about Future
I’m not really in the real world now, so I think it’s probably gonna come as a bit of a shock to me. I think I’m gonna be quite disappointed; probably gonna be a bit 9)mundane when you get that with your bills, trying to make ends meet.
I reckon being a teenager ends when you start getting into routine of going to work and coming home and having your dinner and watching 10)East Enders and then going to sleep and getting up and doing exactly the same thing every day and not having any variety, and just, basically, stop having as much fun. It’s just not as 11)wacky.
So when you’re a teenager, you want everything to be like how you think it is. Then, when you’re older, it’s stopped being like that, and you have just to accept the fact that, you know, you can be wrong.
成长那些麻烦事
身体变化
我那时在上英语课，我走出来，去了女生洗手间，我以为那是因为我有点肚子疼，然后我像是：“喔，天呀！”
所有的女孩子都长得很快，还有一些别的方面，我们就是落在她们后面，然后，你开始发觉自己跟她们一样高了，赶上她们了。你没有发觉自己在长个儿，就是觉得自己突然间长得更高了，你可以从镜子中看得到，而之前你是不会留意到这种事情的。
我那时真的有些担心了，因为我还没开始，开始得非常晚，我所有的朋友都开始了，可最后轮到我了，我真想说：“我一点也不想要了。”
我发现的第一个变化是我15岁左右的时候，长了点小胡须，我得把它刮掉，那比我的许多朋友都早。有时候那让我觉得很孤单，因为没人跟我经历同样的事情，所以在班里，我也找不到人说这些事。
同伴压力
和我的第一个女朋友在一起时，大家都跟我说要如何与她相处，我有点摸不着头脑，导致最后事情变得比较麻烦，但基本上我就这么跟她说了。还有另一种情况，要是你在派对上，每个人都在嗑药，但如果你不这么做的话，我想其他所有人都会觉得有点不爽，他们是想让你一起嗑药。
在这个年纪，你确实会承受足够多的同伴压力，你的言行衣着都会被迫按某种方式进行。
学业压力
我起床，你知道，半夜突然醒来，我就是说：“哦，天啊，我要考试，我不知道该怎么办。”总是感觉自己要哭了。太恐怖了。我在英语科拿了不少B，你知道，那不够好，我失去所有信心了。你会觉得就要参加大学升学考试了。两年后，你知道，不容有失。复读一年、呆在家里如何？没门。想都别想。那时我拿到中考成绩之后，我……我很沮丧，难以置信地沮丧，我下定决心要考好，我不想再体验那份沮丧了。
老师们似乎都觉得我们除了拼命学习就没什么好做的了，但我觉得那更多的是一段时光，让你了解自己是个怎样的人，以及想做什么事。
同伴欺凌
大家常常会说：“噢，对，你身上很臭”这样的话。那真的很让人沮丧。孩子们真的真的可以非常残忍。让人难以置信。他们会抓住任何事情。要是你不在学校，他们会称你为“懒鬼”，你知道，他们会抓住任何小事情。就像是他们每个人都有一个凿子，他们总是不断地往你身上凿，要是你撑不下去，你知道，你最后会变得啥都不是。那真的很令人伤心。
有段时间，我确实被年纪比我大的人欺负，接着是同龄人。我觉得交朋友很难，因为人们认为……我崇拜撒旦，所以，你知道，大家不喜欢我。那很痛苦，但我觉得那让我变成了今天这个样子。
忧虑未来
我还没真正进入现实社会，所以我觉得那很可能会让我有点不知所措。我觉得自己会非常失望；要自己付账单，维持生计，生活很可能有点平庸。
我想，青春期结束就是你开始按部就班地生活：上班，回家，吃饭，看《东伦敦人》，然后睡觉，接着起床，每天做着相同的事情，没有一点变化，基本上就不再拥有乐趣了。就是不再那么的傻里傻气了。
所以，当你是个青少年的时候，你希望所有事情都如你所想。然后，当你长大一点，事情就不再是那样了，你就是得接受那个事实，你知道，可能是你错了。